The Editor’s Letter – February
The word ‘DESIRE’ is a powerful, emotive, and unsurprisingly, well suited word for February, the dreaded or delightful month of love.
When I hear the word ‘DESIRE’, notions of sensuality or sexuality often spring to mind. But while those are of course aspects of desire, I chose this month’s theme for a chance to think more widely about something that relates to the core of who we all are.
TO BE FULLY KNOWN YET FULLY LOVED
Deep down, all of us, especially women, desire to be desired. Not in a way that makes us feel ‘hot,’ but rather, we desire to be truly known – when we’re at our most vulnerable, with all of our faults and insecurities – and yet, fully loved and accepted.
I recently realised that as much as I am quite focused on building my career, my day-to-day life was full of distractions, consumed with so much social media activity. Sometimes this was necessary for my work, but the main drawback was living a life concerned with waiting for others to approve /appreciate/ ’like’ my life choices. Displaying our lives on social media is like advertising ourselves on a billboard. Instagram is not a diary that shows our true nature, and so, I’ve decided to remove all social media apps from my phone (which has freed up a lot of time during the day!) I need space to understand who I am and live from a foundation of knowing that ultimately I am truly known –to be seen for who I really am, and yet not judged.
FAITH AND DESIRE
I’m still trying to understanding what a personal faith means to me. Before I came to have a faith and a discover my own relationship with Jesus, I often found it insincere and disconcerting that Christians could seemingly give up so much of what is enjoyable and fulfilling in life – their own personal desires (for success, sex, and general fun etc) – and moreover, seemed way too happy about that sacrifice.
But when I lost my granddad 3 years ago, what I remember from the funeral is not just people talking about what a great man he was, but also that everyone who spoke talked about his legacy. In a generation where we’re all about instant gratification and the NOW, legacy and its meaning are often lost on us. It’s easy for desires to rule us. Desire for success, money or desire for a person can overtake and sometimes shape our perspective on life.
The journey I’ve been on has made me think – who do I really want to be? What do I want to define my life? I don’t think we’ll ever have a fixed or final answer that we can work towards, or which always matches our immediate desires. But I do know the framework of my life, which is that I desire to know God – personally and intimately. I desire to know the One who created the world and me and know His plans and desires for my life. I desire to be a woman who knows what she believes, a woman of strength and dignity that isn’t afraid to stand up for her convictions. I desire to be a woman who isn’t so focused on her own life and goals that she isn’t sensitive to those around her, but instead, is someone who is selfless and gracious and attuned to the needs of the world around her.
I am so so far from achieving all of that, but what I love about MAGNIFY is the chance to profile so many amazing women, all of whom are on their own journey, a journey marked with challenges, difficulties and victories, but ones that can inspire us all at different points in our lives.
I hope this month this month is a great one – full of fun, relaxation and time to reflect. Enjoy reading.
Much love always,
Ruth Yimika Awogbade x x